No More Chemo

I've finished my Chemo and I'm shocked to the effect on how just one Chemo cause such a reaction out of me. Each one felt like a year was taken out of me. Though I pulled out fairly strong it was REALLY hard to deal with. Something I wish NO ONE to ever go through. I was fairly lucky that I didn't have to do more than one session once a month. I couldn't imagine having to go through multiple times. It literally feels like you're dying every time you have Chemo. That's basically how it feels. The after effects are horrific really. Each treatment has had it's different side effects and yet similar at the same time.

You have your staples like nausea, fatique, sores, memory loss, etc but each are in varying degrees. It's strange really. For instance the first Chemo I had Sever nausea, fatigue was minimal. The second Fatigue was sever, and nausea wasn't so bad. One thing that did happen that I was shocked was my grumpiness. I really didn't want to hang out or talk to anyone. I just wanted to be left alone. I think it was because I was so weak and I didn't want anyone to really know how weak I really was. I suppose it's an animal instinct to do is to hide when you're sick. I forced myself to socialize really. I knew it wasn't good for me to hide so often. So each time I went to Chemo I REALLY didn't want to go back and seriously considering NEVER going back again. All except for the last one. The last one I knew it was the last one so I was JUST so happy I didn't have to do this EVER again. The nurses all tried to make my stay comfortable and enjoyable but even the cheeriness of the staff didn't make it stay any better really. If you remember of my eariler Bloggs I had problems with the extreme happiness of people...WELL with Chemo there is certainly a better idea WHY these people are so happy. They have to be.