Amazing new friends

This photo is a good friend of mine who has helped me through the roughest periods of my cancer. He is one of the most loveliest people I am priviledged to have met. He'll never let you know it but he is a real sweetheart and one of the most intellectual persons I have ever met. Each of my friends hold a very special spot in my heart.


Through my time with cancer I've seen some friends come and I have seen friends go. People say that when times are difficult is the time you see who your real friends are and who aren't really your friends. I've have some amazing friends...I really have to say that. I've also have met some really amazing new friends which I hope to incorporate them into my new project.

It amazes me how many people come up to me asking me if I have cancer. I enjoy having a bald head and wearing a scarf on my head is what I want to say to them but in reality on one respect I don't mind but on the other it's odd. I really don't like all the attention that my scarf attracts to me but it's basically the only thing that's comfortable enough for me to maintain. I really hate wearing my wig.

Anyway, I was at the bookstore today to get some books for class and this lady comes up to me asking me about art supplies. Then she starts talking to me about her cancer. Turns out she's had brest cancer too. Out of nowhere she tells me her situation with school. Apparently school kicked her out of school because of her cancer. Shocked and amazed that there was more than one person with this problem with school I am severely disappointed in the lack of compassion my school has for thier students with cancer.

When a person gets cancer it's not an easy thing to deal with. The pain, suffering, and the constant thought of death surrounding you. Her story reminded me of my situation. Atlease I had it easier and school didn't forbid me to come back...but, seriously she had her childred to keep her going everyday as she recalls her disappointment from school I really had nothing to keep me going. I kept recalling ow depressed I was. You see, at the time of my diagnosis I had just started my divorce my whole life just seemed like it was falling apart. And then I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It seemed as I was down I was kicked in the teeth again with the whole situation with school but at the time it was just one teacher.

I remember how suicidal I was...I basically felt I had nothing and the one thing that was keeping me going was finishing school. My whole life seemed like it was on a path of distruction. Had I not had some of the fabulous instructors in the spring of 2008 I really don't think I would have been alive.