School saga continues

I truely hate that people don't understand how difficult cancer can be for someone. My struggle with school continues to dumbfound me in new and incredible ways. I know I need to learn to deal with the burocracy of it all but COMMON, this is ridiculous.

I have taken my case to the BOE (Board of Education) and as much as I have faith in my countries justice system I am beginning to move towards the injust.

For the past month I've been fighting Financial Aid (and get this) soon after I filed my complaint to the BOE Financial Aid begins to lose my paperwork. Then I nearly lose my financial aid because of this ridiculous class. Apparently ALL "I" or incompletes turn into an F by the end on two semesters. I didn't know this but apparently it's standard procedure and yet NO ONE knows about this including the dean. No one except the financial aid department who promptly rejected my financial aid because of the loss files and this class. I had other incompletes and they tried to say it was because of the other incompletes however, I have turned in all other incompletes and explained why I haven't been able to complete Dr. H's class. I've turned in ALL other paperwork for financial aid that they requested and yet I still do not have my financial aid.

SO, the BOE calls me for the past 3 days. I've been busy jumping through hoops going to doctors appointments and trying to get Radiation treatments. So I return thier call and apologise to them with my late responses. The person who called me asked if I made a deal with school...basically if I would take the course again with Dr. Zanca. Which I told them yes I would however, this doesn't stop the fact that I was discriminated against and that I'm not really satified with the results. On top of which things have changed since the negociations had concluded...

1) the "I" turning into an "F" I was told the "I" would remain and "I" until I completed the requirements

2) It should not effect my financial aid...it explicitly told them I was concerned about it and they told me something completely different

3) I had NO IDEA how much brain damage I would have to suffer. I've have noticably difference in retaining information. I dont know if I can remember everything. I fear that my comprehension will no be up to par. I had a taste of what to expect this past summer when I took intro to Cultural Anthro...GOOD GRIEF I had such a hard time reading. I absolutely had no idea where that came from. And THEN when I had to regurgitate the information after reading the material the NIGHT before THAT was a nightmare. Exams and classroom work I am terrified right now. I've been trying really hard to rehab my brain but somehow I fear that it's not going to go back to normal.

- SO, this means if I had been given the exam BEFORE my second surgery and Chemo Dr. H and the school would not be having this problem...and it's not really the school's problem...it's mine and they could care less about what Dr. H did.

- BOE apparently is siding with Dr. H reading to me the handbook for absentses...I can't find the exact school policies but basically students have to attend all classes with the exception of excused absentese...How is surgery and recovery from surgery not excuseable?

This person from the BOE told me well you have to do the work...SO the three classes were more important than my health...I asked him. At this point Lets just call him Mr. O was rather upset and said nothing to me...I carried on and asked if he actually read my complaint? For some reason he got it in his head I didn't want to take the final. I had told him in the complaint I had requested Dr. H to allow me to take the exam on three separate occassion and Dr. H refused me. I further told Mr. O that I had ALL of the conversations documented Via Email.

Suddenly Mr. O, rather pissed off still but, started to change his tune about the rightousness of Dr. H then started insisting I change the topic back to what I wanted from the school. At this point I have no idea. I KNOW I can't simply take the exam at this point. I have to take the entire course again to be able to take the final. I'm reluctant because I don't know if I can handle it at this point. So what can I do to take this course so it would be easier on me given the brain damage I suffered?

I can not wait for another semester because GUESS WHO is teaching it, That's right Dr. H. I've already asked if I could take it in another school but NO OTHER SCHOOL has an equilivant course.

Anyway, I got in my head why does he think that cancer is NOT an excuseable absence? So I asked him...by the way I'm sobbing at this point...I HAVE NOT IDEA why, just suddenly I got really upset and started crying. I guess my fustration with finanical aid, cancer, and this WHOLE BS with Dr. H was driving me nuts. His response was he wasn't going to argue with me. Then he told me to get off the phone with him because it seemed like this was a bad time for us to have a conversation and to call him back next week to deal with this. BUT, I really wanted him to explain why he thought that cancer was not and excuseable absence...is that so much to ask?
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