Hair growing back

Well, my hair is going back faster in places I don't want it to grow and slow in places that I want it to grow faster. Or perhaps, it's all growing at the same time at the same pace and I'm just being picky.

At any rate, Radiation sucks. I had no idea how tired I would be. I'm so ridiculously tired from the littlest things I can't even believe it. I went away this weekend with my family...nothing really special just somewhere local and it was nice to get out of the city. We went biking, canoeing, hiking, and had a nice picnic at a nice little river. At the end of each event I was exhausted thinking that I couldn't make it to the next event but somehow I mustard a little energy and kept on going.

I didn't have to have radiation this holiday weekend which was nice...so for three days I forgot all about radiation treatment just to find out that on Tuesday the agony of making the trip up there and having my hands fall asleep as I'm waiting for them to give me treatment.

I should say it's not normal for this to happen. It's normally a 10 to 15 min process. Nothing crazy. But for some reason I keep getting films taken over and over. Which isn't supposed to happen. I think she said that it's only supposed to happen once every two weeks which means it's supposed to happen 3 times total...I've had 6 in the past week and a half...Not 100% sure why.

Seems like since I started there has been problems with my radiation treatment...not reactionary, not so much but, equipment failure or having to retake films over and over again. As you might remember I have to have my arms up like in a sling above my arms and normally, because of how the machine is run my arm often gets caught in the machine and the arm cuff so, they have to adjust the cuff so the machine doesn't catch my arm. Well, unfortunately the position of the cuff cuts into my arm and makes it even more uncomfortable all this time you're supposed to lie perfectly still. Having to take films is an additional 20 min process so...it's a little painful and a little annoying. Especially when suddenly you get an itch on your nose... Really all I can think about is getting up and walking out of the room.

My breast is tender, red, and firm.the skin around my right breast is tight. Almost like it was soon after my surgery. I notice a change in my overall skin too. It's a little blotchy and I feel like it's getting older. I mean older faster...not sure if that makes any sense. It's alot drier than normal. I feel pain on the inside of my breast sort of like a throbbing sensation to a stabbing pain. But it's mostly the throb.

I'm concern about school. I'm worried I can't keep up. My memory I'm seriously struggling with currently. Although my reading comprehension seems to be ok. My memory doesn't seem to be improving. It's sad because realize it's not just the school thing I worry about...it's that I know I'm slowly beginning to lose memory of my mother who had died 15 years ago of cancer. Everyday I struggle to remember her, holding on to her laugh, holding on to her smile, her jovial ways, her tears, her happiness. I really miss my mom.